A Bird in a cage!!!

Life is a fairytale most times

Can be cruel sometimes

Sometimes red, sometimes black

My favourite colours alright

Yet, my most intense emotions in broad daylight

Nothing I say makes sense

Nothing I see makes sense

Nothing I hear makes sense

Nothing I feel makes sense

No one can make me feel wholesome

It’s my world of gloom

I sink deep into a reclusive world

Where there is none to care and cuddle

I own it; it’s just me and loneliness

A deep dark place

Where am white, enveloped by everything that’s black

I want to hold my hands straight up

Desperately wishing someone will pull me up

I feel so heavy, I sink further

Can’t make contact with the lunging hands

I withdraw, head down and crouched, clasping my knees

I want to see no one

I want to hear no voice

I want to sit in silence

Listening to the reverberation of my bleeding heart

And the river of sorrow in all its fury

I tell myself

Life is not always a fairytale

There are greys and blues too

Reach out and I will feel buoyant again

Not always easy to spell out loud

Try, try and try again

I want to cry

I want to scream

I want to kick

I want to destruct

I want to run

I want to just vent

It’s not easy to let go

It’s not easy to let it pass

It’s not easy to express

It’s not easy to evade

I sit still, all knotted up

There’s a hint of a breakthrough to see

Out of the blue, the hand of the most unlikely source

A few words of solace is all it takes

In minutes I see a flicker of light

I pull myself up with intent

Hands extended horizontally

Am finally free of the noose

Life is a fairytale again

Albeit only for the world outside

Deep inside there is lingering pain

Filling up the empty bottle slowly but steadily

Waiting to explode on another cloudy day

Free yourself and fly, fly, fly away !!!